Psalm 143

Psalm 143 
English Standard Version (ESV)

 I am unworthy of God's love and deserving of death, and yet God mercifully reaches out and washes me clean in the blood of Christ, preserving my life and securing for me an eternal weight of glory and a victory over death.
  Yet, let's be honest--it doesn't always feel like this, does it?  Life isn't one big coronation parade to the grave.
  This is how our feelings betray us -- even though it doesn't always feel like we're rushing onwards to face our eternal destiny of life and joy and peace, it is still true.  Just because your feelings and your circumstances are trying to communicate despair and struggle, the Gospel is still true--you are still destined for eternal life in Christ, and the all-powerful love of God still dwells in and around you, protecting you and strengthening you, preparing you for the fullness of life in the Kingdom.
  God is at work in and around you, giving you glimpses of your future in Him.  Just because you cannot see them is not cause for despair.  Remember who you are, and remember what God has done for you, and think that that there are untold riches of grace still to come.